Tuesday, April 8, 2014

Your microbes make you who you are – the overwhelming human microbiome!

I wrote this as a piece for one of my relatives who is a doctor and for his friends as a casual read. Because of this reason, this doesn't have references in line. Check it out below and  let me know what you think!

When Dr. Janardhanan asked me to write an article for doctors, I started wondering what I could possibly talk about that appeals to the most knowledgeable community on the face of the planet. What could I tell about biology to great doctors that years of real experience with real patients hasn’t taught them? However, as a PhD student in basic biology, I thought I could write about a topic that fascinates me and has taken the biology research world by storm. There is a constant debate about whether we (the government/taxpayers) should spend valuable money on basic research (‘basic research’ is research about answering questions about how living things work, as opposed to ‘translational’ targeted research about finding out cure for diseases). This debate reminds me of a quote by mountaineer Gregory Mallory who made the first attempt (although, in vain) to climb Mt. Everest. When asked “why do you want to climb Mt. Everest”, he famously replied, “because it is there!” In my opinion, that curiosity about how living things work is sufficient reason to do basic research – ‘because it is there’. But I will also point out that basic biological research is much more than research to satisfy curiosity – researching on a topic ‘because it is there’. There have been so many serendipitous discoveries that emerged from basic science research that mankind has benefited from – some of the popular ones are the discovery of X-rays, the identification of insulin, development of pap smear test and the identification of penicillin. Thus, there is no doubt that research in basic biology will help us in the long run to solve many of the human problems/diseases.
Human microbiome – the hot topic in basic biology research today:
Keeping with the theme of emphasizing basic research, this article is about a hot topic in basic biology research today. I would like throw light on a few astonishing findings about the human microbiome and how the microbiome influences the functioning of the human body in a surprisingly huge way. The ‘human microbiome’ denotes the vast variety of micro-organisms that inhabit the human body, often in a non-pathogenic way. It includes bacteria, fungi, archaea, viruses and even some eukaryotic micro-organisms. They inhabit many areas of the human body including the skin, conjunctiva, saliva, oral mucosa and majorly, the gut/digestive (gastro-intestinal) tract.
The human microbiome is overwhelming and immense:
The human intestine is home to roughly about 100 trillion microorganisms! That number is so huge that it is 10 times more than the total number of human cells. To reiterate – there are more microbes in just our intestine than there are human cells in the whole body!!! The discovery of the huge number of microbes and the immense diversity of these microbes brought up many questions. We have only begun to scratch the surface about finding out what all these things do.
We have advanced so much in biology these days that we want to identify the molecular/genetic basis of everything. Extending that to the human microbiome, one can ask many questions - how many/what genes do these microbes encode? What effects do these genes and their products cause in the human body? To put the immensity of these questions in perspective, the gut microbes encode around a hundred times more genes as there are in the humans. The human genes themselves are so complex and have so many functions - now imagine how many functions hundred times as many genes can have! Simply mind-blowing!
The diversity in the human microbiome:
An important fact about the microbiome is that each person and body part has a unique composition of microbes. With the advent of cutting-edge gene-sequencing technologies, we are able to identify what microbes are present in a human being’s body. The ‘human microbiome project’ set out to identify and catalog the microbes of our body. Strikingly, they found that the composition of the microbiome varies from individual to individual. And even more strikingly, they found that the composition of microbiome may be potentially different in healthy versus diseased individuals! What more, even though a different species of microbe might occupy one healthy individual’s gut from another healthy individual’s gut, they can perform similar functions. As long any microbe carries out the function, the human being is fine – healthy and happy. The minute there is no microbe there doing that function, is when problem starts.
From mood to mosquitoes – the microbiome influences practically everything our body does:
We have begun to study what processes and functions of the human body these microbes influence. I have highlighted a few astonishing facts about how human well-being and health is affected by the composition and function of the microbiome.
·         Consider H.pylori. We have always thought of it as a ‘bad’ microbe because it causes gastric ulcer. But, a study found that H.pylori positive persons have a lower risk of childhood asthma and allergies. Because of the bacteria’s role in modulating the ghrelin hormone, eliminating H.pylori to protect against ulcers could contribute to early obesity and type-2 diabetes instead.
·         A study found that the composition of the human skin microbiome affects how ‘attractive’ a person is to the malarial mosquitoes.
·         The gut microbes break down some sugars that our body’s enzymes cannot digest.
·         The gut bacteria form a natural immune barrier and have many protective roles in guarding against other infections. Some good bacteria compete against bad pathogenic bacteria and protect us! In addition, when inflammation breaks the delicate balance between the host (human body) and the good microbes, it can cause serious effects, even colorectal cancer.
·         Cystic fibrosis patients exhibit unusual respiratory bacteria, in other words, the composition of the respiratory tract microbiome differs in healthy versus diseased individuals.
·         Microbiome can affect our mood! (maybe that is why they are called ‘gut’ feelings). Changing the gut microbes alters risk-taking ability and sociability in mice. When researchers gave probiotics to anxious mice, the mice showed reduced anxiety and decreased stress hormones.
So what does all this mean to doctors?
Creatively, many people like to describe the human microbiome as a separate, understudied organ that pretty much dictates everything in the human body. Others have taken to describing our body as a ‘superorganism’ – a distinct group of organisms that includes human cells, rather than thinking of it as a main human body occupied by these small, insignificant microbes. However we describe the human microbiome, we have come to a point when we cannot deny that they play crucial roles in the functioning of the human body.
Gone are the days when we thought of bacteria, viruses, fungi and other microbes just as villains of human health. Bacteria are bad because they cause diseases, right? That’s why we use Lifebuoy soaps and anti-bacterial everything in the modern world, right? Wrong!! Sure, there is a whole world of pathogenic microbes out there. But as we unravel functions of the human microbiome and understand how much they help the ‘normal’ functioning and well-being of human body, one begins to wonder if the bad blame we’ve been putting on these microbes all these years is true, after all.
All being said, one has to agree that research in this direction is still in very preliminary stages. We have a long way to go in understanding what the implications of the human microbiome are. Nevertheless, it is evident that in some form or the other, the microbiome contributes to normal well-being of humans. When the delicate balance between humans and these microbes is lost, it can result in disease.
Knowing about human microbiome has huge implications in the field of medicine – especially in a world where there are so many antibiotics, probiotics and what not. Antibiotics are miraculous drugs and have saved numerous lives. But in the light of the microbiome, we need to look at other side-effects of antibiotics – not just in causing antibiotic resistances, but also interfering with the balance between the microbial populations and human cells and the potential effects it can have. Wiping out all the microbes or even a specific species using antibiotics might result in more effects than just curing a disease. It might alter the microbiome in a way that we don’t understand yet.

To sum up, your microbes make you who you are – from your mood to that stupid mosquito that keeps biting you, your microbes could be the reason!

Tuesday, March 25, 2014

Thinking out loud...

I know it's been a while. I can't believe 2013 is already drawing to a close. It's been quite a year, particularly so for self-introspection. I would like to believe it is part of maturing older and hopefully wiser. I have taken to observing and experiencing Carnatic music in depth, with three of my very talented friends. So I paid extra attention to Margazhi Maha Utsavam this year. Musically I feel I am much more aware - I am able to distinguish between 'good' and 'bad' in music better than before.

The real joke came when Sanjay Subramanyan sang on the theme of naalayira divya prabandham - started with a brisk pallandu pallandu. He followed it by kondal vannanai and I chuckled thinking how I knew it by heart, thanks to Chennai Express Titli song! :P Talking of maturing, I find that I am able to absorb much more through just reading lyrics and listening to the music after I've imbibed the meaning!

And then this - brace yourself - I am going in to spirituality. Priya sisters sang on atma gyanam-brahma gyanam. And I heard this atma shatakam by Adi Shankara and there! It just struck me, I was completely overwhelmed - the last time I remember something like this happened was when I listened to ananda natana prakasham by TMK. But this was just too remarkable - I sat down to read about it and I was taken into it even more. I read a little bit about Adi Shankara and now I think I wanna do two things - understand, memorize, learn to sing and think about atma shatakam; I want to read more on this - advaita and whatnot. I don't even know the alphabets of these, maybe it would enrich my life - reading/knowing these. Or maybe it would leave me confused. I will have to try it to find out. Also, I started learning sanskrit. Lets see where this takes me....

Friday, March 22, 2013

Fooooood!

So today started with a Nutella hot dog with strawberries, had capsicum rice and a thick boondi raita for lunch and an elaborate three course dinner at Tamarind... Doesn't get better than that! And of course I ended with watching ekk Mai aur ekk tu!! Yaaaay :) small pleasures in life!!

Wednesday, March 13, 2013

The world we live in!

Hello there, long time no see!
However for a change this time, I won't write a long huge post about why I didn't blog so long pretending as if I know why.

 I go into this weird state of mind sometimes, living at CMU in this era technology and innovation changing my life everyday. I wonder how far we've come, how much we've grown and outgrown. To be able to show that my dosa was a perfect circle paper roast on skype to people thousands of miles away instantly in real time - I definitely didn't think of that when I first created an email ID and that wasn't too long ago: it was less than a decade ago!
And now at CMU we have the butler robot HERB separating the cookie and the cream from the Oreo cookie. Who would have thought?!
Google glass, robotic DNA extraction, Soundhound, Personal robotic butlers... Where are we headed?!

Anyway, what prompted this post was - I was listening to a rather long song on the YouTube app on my iPhone. And then, I started texting a friend, so I had to stop listening to the song. The bad thing about tech wars is: iOS6 as of now doesn't support background playing of Youtube. I downloaded a youtube client app called Jasmine that would do it very well until recently but some update screwed it up!

Well, the point is, I wouldn't have expected even my history to be updated immediately on my youtube account when I opened my laptop. But hey, boom - not only was the history up-to-date (or up-to-second, maybe?), it started playing exactly from the point I had stopped listening! Oh wow, what a world we live in! I feel like my grandmom who calls all this magic, but sometimes the line is very blurry, thinking of it.... 

Friday, November 9, 2012

The fall is here...

Yes, my most favorite season is here! And with it came a lot of positivity, despite everything that went wrong! And that's why I like the fall. Despite being rather infamous for being depressing, I find it invigorating... Maybe it's just me.
Honestly, I think I like the change of seasons more than the seasons themselves, just because I like to look forward to change. Also, I like the fact that it reiterates that time is indeed fleeting, that things aren't gonna be the same for long. I know, the fall brings out the whimsical part of me and I love it!

Happy fall colors! :) Goodbye, summer!


Saturday, July 28, 2012

Random lament!

Am I the only one who plays music so loud - that it is louder than my thoughts?! Well, it works - even after a 14 hour intense work day, extreme hunger pangs, sleeplessness and weird homesickness/missing-people state of mind. All I have to make sure is that the playlist is long and uninterrupted - Cocktail songs playing now. Give it a shot! The only problem is when something like 'Yaariyan' comes on, resonates with whatever thoughts you were trying to avoid and brings them up in full force! Sigh! 

Monday, June 4, 2012

Interesting people I meet...

Just found this post in my archives hidden amongst the many drafts... Sep 4,2011 is the date I wrote this, coming back from India! :) On to the post now...

Yes I am still alive - Alive with a mosaic of emotions engulfing me every single day. As I realized I need to write something simply because it has been long since I wrote a post and as I read old archives, it occurred to me that the blog was becoming more and more about me and me only. So I decided to write something that just took me by force during my India trip and that was not necessarily about me. That said, my India trip is something I can't miss writing about, so that should come very soon, God willing.

So after waiting for almost a week for that moment, I went to Marina, probably one of those places that makes me a totally different person. A place that has witnessed many of the most defining moments of my life, and as you can see, I can go on and on about it. The first thought that occurred to me as I set my bare foot on the sands of the beach - yes, I spent a fortune for Miami, something I had been dreaming of for quite sometime, I planned it so well that it would be on New year's eve when the whole city erupts partying and yes, I had one of the most rocking days of my life there. But Miami grossly lacks that weird little something that Marina has, and my heart skips a beat here. This is probably the only beach in the world where people wear a saree to, where you can take an 80 year old and a 3 year old at the same time and still manage to have some fun.

So as we were chitchatting over home-packed food and mangas from the beach, there came this tiny little boy around 7-8 years old, selling the iconic sundal. He said 'sundal vaangikonga ka' (please buy boiled chickpeas). My mom being this huge supporter of children's education being a teacher herself, asked him if he goes to school. He said he was going to the nearby corporation school and that was kind of obvious coz he was still in his school uniform. Here is how the conversation goes - pardon me, all the people who don't understand Tamil.

Mom: So which class are you in?

He: 2nd standard.

Mom: Which school do you go to?

He : The corporation school near___ place.

Mom: Ozhunga school-ku dhinam poviya? (do u go to school regularly?)

He: Aama apram miss thittuvaanga illa. (yes ofcourse, or my school teacher would scold me.)

Mom: Evlo neram vela paapa? (How long do u work?)

He: 8 :30 -kku school-ku poven, 3 manikku veetukku vandhuttu odane inga vandhuruven. Engamma sundal panni vechirukkum. Enga akka oruthi irukka, avalum naanum inga vippom.

Mom: Oru naalaikku evlo rooba kedaikkum?

He: Sani gnayiru apdina 600 kedaikkum, school naal-na 200-250 rooba kedaikkum.

Mom: seri onakku koota kazhikka ellam theriyuma? Rendam class dhane padikkara?

He : Hmmm theriyume (in that unimitable iconic tone). Neenga vena kelunga, kooti kazhichi solren.

Mom: Seri, oru sundal potlam evlo rooba?

He: 5 rooba.

Mom: ungitta naam ambadhu rooba kuduthu sundal vaangina evlo thirupi kuduppa?

He: Evlo sundal vaangireenga-ne sollala? (That's where I was bowled over. We were thinking it was a task doing (50 - 5) Never realized he would know multiplication!

Mom: 1 vaanginaka evlo?

He: naapathi anju

Mom: Rendu vaangina?

He: naapadhu.

Mom: 5 vaangina?

He: iruvathi anju. IN LIGHTNING FAST SPEED.

I should agree, with an Anna university degree, I was ashamed of my reflexes. My cousin who is in 3rd standard going to the best school in a Honda city, being taught by teachers with enviable degrees was put to shame with his speed. He was still borrowing to do the subtraction while this beach wonder just blurted out answers in a tone that said, thu ivlo dhana.

Mom: seri appa enna panraar?

He : Avaru kudichitu road-la vizhundhu kedapaaru.

Mom: Aiyo., Seri nee periyavanana ennava varanum?

Mom: Doctor ah? Engineer ah?

He: Police aaganum. Vijay maadhiri!!!!!

I don't know if i should smile or laugh aloud! :)







Sunday, May 13, 2012

In the mood for old songs...

And please, no, don't expect black and white songs! These are songs I grew up watching on TV literally everyday for an extended period of my childhood.. So here it goes, the first one of these is what I would call the grand daddy of all item numbers in Tamil. And this is my dedication to my mom for, hmm, lets say Mother's day! She's gonna kill me if she reads this, but I know she likes this song a lot! :) And my dad too! So here it goes - saraku vechiriken... The funniest part of it is the English subtitles...

Just feels so liberating! Love this one!! :)

Friday, April 27, 2012

Thought for the day...

Or rather, the wish for the day! I want to watch an Aurora Borealis happen live! Don't know why it struck me today of all the days. (I am sort of specific, not the Aurora Australis, not the red/brown hue!) I really really want to envision the magic of a million shades of blue or green engulfing me with all their glory. And in that moment, I want to forget that this is earth, I want to get the closest to experience cosmos, to be immersed in nothing but colors. I distinctly remember even the exact conversation and the day, when a friend of mine first told me about this phenomenon - for the very first time, in my 9th grade. And after reading about it/seeing pictures, I still refuse to believe such a spectacle can be real. And if seeing is believing, no wonder I don't believe such a spectacular thing exists, simply because I've never seen anything like that. The fact is I don't know remember much about the event or the science behind it. All I know is that I was and will always be fascinated by such a possibility of envisaging colors and colors and more colors. Not knowing how the laws of science might dictate the event, I can dream on and on about what an amazing experience it would be. Often we fail to realize how blissful a state of mind this is - when our little knowledge is guided by imagination and thoughts alone, without the realms of reality limiting us. And there, friend, we'd have found the infinite. So, Aurora Borealis, here I come! P.S : Of course I am not putting up a picture here! Isn't the whole point of this post lost then?!

Sunday, April 8, 2012

A near-utopian Sunday

I have been trying hard to live a life that I truly cherish, honestly, who doesn't? As the wiser souls there probably would know, it's easier said than done. But I decided to have someone inside of me monitor me this weekend. Planned to take a complete off from work this weekend, told myself that it is sort of my detox weekend. When things are going wrong, just pause, look away and focus. Nobody at home, so I have all the space I want. Near-perfect weather, not too hot, not too cold. A bharatanatyam recital yesterday. Practising my favorite Carnatic songs in the eveing. Rasam sadham with vadam for dinner, frozen yoghurt in the night.A good 8 hour sleep. And the Sunday thus dawned. A mile and a half jog, and half an hour of yoga and a refreshing shower afterward. Oatmeal breakfast and a phonecall back home. Then an Ilaiyaraja concert starting with soundarya lahari followed by janani janani, amma endru azhaikadha and then appa's favorite - naanaga naanillai. Goosebumps. Bliss. Hope. P.S - I decided to document these here just so I would relive these again, and the take the effort to do so. Important note - I missed 8 calls and a couple of skype sessions during these 3 hours alone, but hey, it's more than worth it. It's amazing how much ignoring technology can positively influence your feel-goodness!

Tuesday, March 6, 2012

Two years... Since that email from CMU changed my life...



So today is the second anniversary of my CMU admit - two years since receiving
that email that gave the biggest boost to my self-esteem.
That email whose attachment wouldn't open.
That email that caused my heart to skip a beat and go on beating madly for two days of that weekend until that attachment would open...
That email that would change the way I live, the way I perceive the world, my life and the people in these.
That email signed by Adam Linstedt with a subject "Congratulations from Carnegie Mellon"...

Today was the day when my belief in dreams was reiterated and when Geet's movie dialogue became my life's motto - "Jo dil actually chahta hai, actually actually ke liye, insaan ko voh hi milta hai". Roughly transted to Paulo Coelho "If you want something truly, from the bottom of your heart, the entire universe conspires to make it happen for you".

And now, I am sitting and working towards crossing another big milestone in CMU - qualifying exam for PhD. And as usual, in God I trust. Another phase of life where life shows up in its most frightening and stressful avatar and tells you how important little acts of kindness are, how important a couple of good words are and how important people's good wishes are.

So pray for me brother, pray for me sister! Thank you, good souls! God bless!

This day, shall definitely be special, very much indeed!

Monday, February 20, 2012

Jo bhi main..

Trying to write my thesis proposal, at least begin writing an outline - Jo Bhi Main Kehna Chahoon, Barbaad kare alfaaz mere!! How insightful!!!

Sunday, February 19, 2012

THE one and only - அஞ்சு சுத்து முறுக்கு





Guess what, I love surprises, duh. And luckily enough, touchwood, I've been getting a number of gifts recently in the past month or so. And more often than not, even the smallest of surprise gifts move me to tears. Especially if it's from home.

So what now? A few days back and again now, I got this anju suthu murukku (அஞ்சு சுத்து முறுக்கு) from Amma - parcel. The first time, I got it along with a 'disaster' (verbatim, from Amma) maida cake' as she attempted her creativity by putting some Boost in the maida cake!! (If you know a bit of TamBrahm cuisine, this maida cake is one of the most lowly regarded sweets - and if it is not supplemented by pineapple, vanilla or god-knows-what flavor, it's blasphemy)! And needless to say, it tasted divine to my taste-deprived Gustatory cortex.

And now, to the hero of the story - the murukku. It's one of the very few left Tamizhachiness in me I guess. Murukku is something that's inherent to Tamilnadu alone, I believe or so do I want to believe. And the classic anju suthu murukku is as important as the bride and the groom in any TamBrahm wedding. And my allllllll-time favorite. Even if my kalyana saapadu had only murukkus I would still live as happily as I am now!

In fact, when I went to India, I even learnt to suthufy murukku. My paatti says "murukku suthardhu ellarukkum varuma? Kuduthu vechirukanum. Kayila valam venum" And of course, like a good grandma she said I am better at murukku suthing than my mom. Ah, there you go, ma! Proof: Look at pictures - 90% of them there are murukkus that I suthufied!

Recently friend had gone to India to his sister's wedding and brought back a bunch of goodies from Grand Sweets, the kalyana seer murukku and a small (on strict instructions about the weight) packet of murukku from Amma. Of course the home made murukku packet comes with rendu suthu, with one special anju suthu like my paatti always does.

Now that you know how big a meaning this wriggly little thing holds in my life, you wouldn't be surprised... (Taking a bit of murukku and getting distracted) Aaah, the pleasure of eating a murukku suthu by suthu. Please, stop frowning, let me live. This is what I want from life, the joy it gives and the smile it brings :)

That said, it is probably history that the neuroscientist in me thinks the strongest connection from the senses is that of olfaction to the hippocampus, or all the memory machinery there is. And now I feel a close second would be from the gustatory system to memory. I bit an adhirasam, amidst all this elation, a tear popped from my eye - thinking of how elaborate with 16 different neivedhyams last krishna jayanthi I spent at home on my sudden trip was - in 2011 - how that would be the last time thatha would eat all the batshanams, as it turned out. Oh no, please, please, give me a time machine! Actually, give him a time machine from heaven - let whim revisit the street in Sukkur district, Pakistan where he was born.

So since I don't want to end this on a sad note - why all this murukku adhirasam nostalgia now? Today was a not-so-unproductive and in fact an unusually cheerful Saturday. And I gave in to my biggest addiction - my blissful afternoon sleep. And here I am with cardamom tea and a plate full of murukku adhirasam and laddu. And a lump in my throat. And a bittersweet feeling in my head, tending more towards sweet. And an yearning, thinking of when it would happen next. And a little anger on myself on why I didn't enjoy many moments of tea with murukku in India a little bit more.

So the next time you see or eat a murukku, remember there's much more to life than just the twists and turns, there's a pleasure hidden in each twist and turn! More murukku to you! (And to me too, please!)(Oh just to clarify - I don't mean the twists of life, _just_ murukku)

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

Cloud nine moment...

Hello, world! Here I am, emerging from my cocoon. I don't know what I've been going through that has stopped me from writing often. Now that I am back, let's see how long it lasts!

Continuing on the previous post, here's something that defined a cloud nine moment, so take a deep breath, read on, curse my pride and self obsession as much as you want, but if you're my true friend, pray that life goes on like this - Chugging along with its share of disappointments peppered with little things that bring a smile - And please wish that in all our lives, once a while, just once in a blue moon, something like this moment happens.

First, let me introduce the man - Dr. JLW, my boss, whose class was the answer to what makes CMU awesome, whose questions and appreciation instilled the aspiration of being a researcher in me. All the while, what amazes me is how his deep research acumen flows alongside his incredible quick wit.

He comes to me one fine afternoon and says "I need your permission for something. Would you mind if I write to your parents? As a parent, I've often wondered how my children are doing in grad school and I thought I would write to your parents too"

I said I am absolutely fine as long as he writes good things. He told me he was going to write that I am running around here with a midget, not showing up regularly in lab. So typically him. That's all I know.

The next day morning I call home - my mom, she is in the temple, her voice brimming with ecstasy that she was trying to restrain so badly because she was at the temple amidst lot of people. Yes, they had received that email of appreciation that my boss had sent them - about how 'fabulously progressing' I am (Now, that's debatable, I am sure). WOW. I never thought my academic success/career advancement meant so much to Appa, Amma and all of my adorable extended family. You work for something, pray for it with all your heart, make enough sacrifices that it becomes the focus of your aspirations day and night and then it happens, miraculously, as they call it. That moment, that undefinable feeling is what I heard in my mom's voice. I realized how much it meant to them, how much they had wished and hoped for my education being the best. All of their pestering emphasis on education right from high school - moments that irritated me to no bounds at some point in life, attained a whole new meaning. I could only laugh thinking of those moments when I questioned myself why I didn't choose to work comfortably in a call center in India!

JLW guruji being the great person he is, was very generous with his words I am presuming - apparently he finished it saying "Thank you for her". Well, what else can make me work harder than ever, I shall show you that you were not wrong, I shall make sure I live up to it, live up to the great inspiration that you've been. Thank you indeed, I feel fortunate to be mentored this way.

Thank you Amma, Appa and Chuchan - for letting me be unapologetically myself, accepting me with all my flaws, not only helping me overcome them but also steering my efforts in a direction that I would succeed in. Words fail me. And the best part about it is that tiny little restrained anger that pops in your voice when I say I stayed up late in the night just to finish an assignment. I promise, I shall take better care of my health. That said, many thanks for letting my rant about my ulcer ruin your mood on many occasions. Thanks for praying for each and every one of my little tests and exams and presentations - right from my kindergarten to my PhD journal clubs. Thanks for teaching me to take failure in my stride. Thanks for teaching me that there's much more to life than what meets the eye. I hope I live up to your aspirations and I hope I am deserving enough for all your love, forever.

Love. Smile. Cheer.

Time to get back to work, after all, I shouldn't forget to practice what begets these moments - sincere effort in whatever one does .

Wednesday, December 7, 2011

Idea for a series of posts!

I don't know what to call this phase in life. But it's very different from any of the ones I've been through before. Melancholic, ecstatic, boring, enthralling all at once, maybe oxymoronic would be a good word to describe it.

But one thing I can't deny is that it has been filled with defining moments - moments of awe, moments of gratitude, moments of extreme pain, moments of dreams coming true, moments of adrenaline rush, moments of fulfillment - what not. As they say, life's not measured by the number of breaths you take but the moments that take your breath away. I've had quite a few of them I believe.


So inspired by this, (no I don't wanna attempt to copy it) http://1000awesomethings.com/ and this http://www.ted.com/talks/neil_pasricha_the_3_a_s_of_awesome.html I decided I would write super briefly (as if that would ever happen) about these moments, one by one. I have had the opportunity to experience things that many don't get to. I have yearned for things that not many want. I have tried to be someone that not many people would imagine themselves to be. But I think hailing from where I do, being the person I am, surrounded by the people I am with, traveling half the way across the globe when I was barely 21 gavage fed me with a million such moments worth remembering.

Yes, the flip side to it is that this blog would become a diary of sorts, but hey, isn't that the secret behind facebook's success? Everybody loves being in somebody else's shoes, peeping into somebody's windows. Here I throw the doors of my life open! Some posts might not be good for public reading, those shall sit in my drafts. Nevertheless, they need to be documented. Not just because I want to be a grandma with awesome stories for my grandchildren, but because they would bring a smile to my face and I personally value nostalgia a lot, probably more than I should.

Let's see how I fare.

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

What the Rain outside the window reminds me of...

What a rain!!! Thunder and lightning... The fiery Indian summer rain, thanks for showing up in Pittsburgh!! :D <3 it...

As I watch the lightning and thunder from inside, these thoughts that have been inside me for quite long, ( the first seeds of it probably had been sown by mom ) flowed out through my pensieve. Like many other posts, this shall have no editing.


Growing up near Srivilliputhur, Aandal has had an influence on me, a huge one. I admire the woman she was - for all that she dreamt of, all that she did, all that she sang, all that she was. The best example being,


ஆழி மழைக் கண்ணா! ஒன்று நீ கை கரவேல்

ஆழி உள் புக்கு முகந்து கொடு ஆர்த்து ஏறி

ஊழி முதல்வன் உருவம் போல் மெய் கறுத்துப்

பாழியம் தோளுடைப் பற்பநாபன் கையில்

ஆழி போல் மின்னி * வலம்புரி போல் நின்று அதிர்ந்து

தாழாதே சார்ங்கம் உதைத்த சர மழை போல்

வாழ உலகினில் பெய்திடாய் நாங்களும்

மார்கழி நீராட மகிழ்ந்தேலோர் எம்பாவாய்....


All I see in this is her love for grandeur. Her love for magnificence, her desire for the powerful. It is not the soft drizzle that she wants. Its the dark clouds, frightningly shiny lightning, resounding thunder, rain drops falling like arrows from His bow... Not the fleeting white clouds, gentle breeze and a soft drizzle. That's as meticulously detailed it can get. What a personality! And it can't manifest any better in words!


To quote another example, its every woman's fantasy to be married the way she dreams in Vaaranam Aayiram, only to be limited by the practical constraints of the world we live in. Who wouldn't want the man of dreams to come surrounded by the gradeur and majesty of a thousand elephants? Again, this is an exemplification of the character of Aandal, she doesn't want a silent, sober marriage. She is not the drizzle person, remember? Everything is amplified, in its best avatar. Maybe the T-storm isn't the first thing you'd want during your day, but coming to think of it, yes, I would definitely want that opulence, that splendor and majesty in everything about life, the most of it in the man of my dreams. Aandal is very much right, only that I am limited by modern day practicality issues. Be it the man of dreams or just about anything in life, the best is just what the doctor ordered for us! Dream big, Aandal showed us the way, after all.


Well, what can I say, make way for the man, chocolate boys!


P.S : In retrospect, I think I would be terribly wrong if I mention this thirupaavai and not talk about the science here. Look at this woman in love, explaining the water cycle in beautiful detail at a time when most of mankind wouldn't have even dreamt of it, let alone use it as an analogy. Simply amazing how she could connect an intricate scientific concept to religion and to the man of her dreams, isn't it?


Thursday, March 24, 2011

Small or Big? Now or Later?

Just press the pause button in your life, just for 5 minutes, for I understand, Time is indeed money. Discussing time-benefit analysis happens more than cost-benefit analysis be it in a board meeting or in a small lab meeting these days ! Read ahead now.

The moon that you so far didn't notice tonight is so beautifully shining amidst the brilliant stars. So what have you been doing today? Make a list. Just to add to our elevated sense of well-being, lets assume you indeed accomplished a million things - be it as small as catching that bus on time or making that perfect blend of coffee to something as big as getting that all-important deal sealed, or negotiating a multi-billion dollar merger. Include them all. You might be a slogging student or a busy businessman, a non-entity or a celebrity. You might have had the best day of your life or have had the roughest of a ride. That's immaterial. Just list down what all you did.

Now imagine your brain were a camera. Look at the bigger picture. ZOOM OUT. How many things you did in your day actually contribute (even if negligibly small) to something big that you always wanted to do in life - your so called long-term ambitions, even if that is simply "to be happy"? How many things did you NOT do today just so that you could do something productive? Oh wait, I heard something - there - the balloon just burst..Oh that was mine, let me be honest. You know what the balloon is.

If you haven't realized yet, the way we define productivity, success and everything else we search for on an everyday basis, isn't actually the way we want it. What is so important today apparently turns out to be one of those 'yea, it wasn't something that I could have just glossed over, but it is not the end of the world either' types.It looks like we aren't being productive enough in a single day to be on track to achieve those dreams we always cherished. If nothing in your list could make it to the prized productive list, so be it. The first fact in becoming more productive is to accept there is scope for improvement. And I reiterate, I do not mean productivity at work alone.

So what the heck are we doing? We spend 24 hours a day, extremely exhausting ones, and that doesn't contribute even a tiny little bit to where we want to be? REALLY???? It is now that the realization dawns, didn't someone tell us "The journey matters more than the destination"? Success doesn't happen in leaps and if it does, it doesn't last. It happens in tiny (for the engineers - it is the perfect example of an infinitesimal change!) little chunks that make up the perfect picture. Indeed, it happens to those people who are too busy looking for it, too busy to notice it.

So, in the process of chasing a few things, do we miss out on something vital, do we fail to enjoy the journey while constantly illusioning of accelerating towards the destination? How long are you going to skip breakfast, how long are you postpone making that phonecall just because you had something seemingly more important to do at that moment ? How much has that 'seemingly important' task scored on your productivity list at the end of the day? Does that mean you are getting your priorities wrong?

Well, the mistake that we often make is not in prioritizing the smaller tasks in our everyday life - we have evolved to be perfect in it - what to do at this moment is often obvious or dictated by your Google Calender. But where we go wrong is prioritizing the elements of the larger picture. Yes ofcourse, money is definitely important, career defines who you are, you have not come this far to quit. But where do we draw the line between doing something to achieve a dream in the future and living the moment? Do we draw the line at all? Is life just all about those dreams so much so that it can engulf your everyday being?

Yes, all of us nurture many dreams both on the professional front and on the personal front. And agreed, being a dreamer is the best you can get in life. But how far will you go to turn that to a reality? How many sacrifices is it worth of? How long are you going to keep making those sacrifices in search of that seemingly ever-elusive dream?

Obviously, the only way out is to enjoy the journey, pay attention to little things, derive pleasure from them, be whole-heartedly content with very small successes. ZOOM IN on life with your brain camera. Smile often - for yourself, just for yourself. From time to time, get crazy, become a child, play with water, eat a weird combination, laugh at yourself, sleep, stare through the window without thinking of anything - DO NOTHING (the most difficult to do, of all, trust me!) I would definitely argue 'doing nothing' is a time that improves productivity like no other. After all, on what can you draw the best-ever painting? An empty canvas.

And as you sit and stare through a window, looking at the soft moonlight, once a while, you realize a few things and some people choose to call it bliss. You - Realize how you always used to dream in the past about living that life you are currently living and complaining about. Realize how your life unfolds in such a way that what appeared to be the end of everything turned out infact to be the best thing that could have happened to you. Realize the person who appeared to be the most important one in the world is a non-entity in your heart now. Realize how that broken relationship has actually taught you a lesson and made you better. Realize how you wouldn't have had this wonderful partner in life if it wasn't for that horribly painful break-up. Realize how you wouldn't have gotten this far in the job if it wasn't for that previous bugging boss. Yeah baby, this crazy thing called life makes sense only in retrospect. So count your blessings now. You are CHOSEN to live this moment in this position, amidst these people at that place. No one else. Enjoy that previlege.

So get back to your list, put a big tick mark and a smiley next to the little things. If you haven't written down anything of that sort, go get a life! Remember to pat yourself and put two smileys against that perfectly blended coffee or staring out the window and watching the rain for 5 mintues - for these are the moments where ideas are born and relationships are saved. Did someone say long-term productivity? These small things influence the realization of your dreams in ways you can't imagine and articulate purely by logic. Look at the moon again now, isn't it smiling at you?

As the last word, I am not saying we ought to give up on the race called life. Be as competitive as you would ever be, be assertively aggressive. But on the highway, do NOT forget to notice those beautiful green fields, the colors of the sky or the river beneath that bridge while you drive. Those are the ones that make the race more worthwhile - because you drive with a smile after noticing them. The acceleration lost in those moments is totally worth it. Not to mention the disclaimer - just notice, if you keep looking at and concentrating on these little things throughout the drive, you are probably going to crash!

Here's wishing you happiness - small or big and the power to notice it. Godspeed.

P.S - Sorry for the misleading title, pun fully intended!

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

Just thought I'd drop in to say Hi! :)

As I realize, it has been really long since I posted anything sane. It has been a quarter of a year and I haven't posted anything? Really? Problem of plenty? Just that too many things have been happening in life to write about any one thing in particular.

But I realized blogging has been such a big source of strength for me, a reminder, a friend, a diary, a nostalgia bringing charm and whatnot. Not to mention all my unpublished posts. I should definitely write more often.

So let me welcome the Spring with a blog post soon. Suggest me what to write on, maybe I am in the Writer's block phase!

Love.

Sunday, November 14, 2010

Behene de...

Wants to speak out loud and clear on a million things. Don't know where to start. Nothing that bothers me, nothing that excites me like crazy, though I would have rated hundreds of events that are happening now that way, probably two months before.

I am a changed soul now, much hardened, much more realistic, much more on the face, no more the sweet person who can accomodate everyone and everything. Oops, Oh god, I am growing up! No, please, let me not. Peaks of fun followed by peaks of crazy work, followed by peaks of emotional thinking. What's happening? Maybe, I should sleep more?

Pass hai phir bhi paas nahin.. Humko yeh gham raaz nahin.. Don't know why, but I wanted to write these lines here.

Yeah, some people have indeed left a mark, an indelible one on my life in the past. Unforgettable people with an incredible charm. But suddenly you realize, as I had always feared, you are the same, they are the same, but the thing between you isn't the same anymore. I am afraid, we actually took all those words we said during the farewell way too seriously, especially that effing "Time to move on in life!". How I wish not!

Ok, not all that's happening in life is grim n sober - it's indeed beautiful. Maybe, this is how a change looks like in life. And as they say, a change is the only one that's permanent. Let me go with the flow, as I always have. Behene de!

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Ig Nobels

Now, if the Nobel prize is too far, out of reach, maybe I should give it a thought.. IgNobel sounds cool!
Reproduced from Deric Bownds' MindBlog, which inturn refers to a Science article:


ScienceNow does a summary of this year's ignoble prizes. This year's ceremony was an exception for including a cash prize: A $100 trillion note from Zimbabwe. (The note's actual value: nada.) One prize returns again to work that I have mentioned in a previous post, showing that slime molds can do as good or better a job than humans in designing transport networks. Here is a list of some of the others:
Engineering: Marine biologist Karina Acevedo-Whitehouse of the Zoological Society of London and colleagues for their method of collecting samples of whale snot using a remote-controlled helicopter.

Medicine: Psychologist Simon Rietveld of the University of Amsterdam in the Netherlands and colleagues for discovering that asthma symptoms can be successfully treated with roller-coaster rides.

Physics: Public health researcher Lianne Parkin of the University of Otago in New Zealand and colleagues for proving that wearing socks on the outside of shoes reduces slips on icy surfaces.

Peace: Psychologist Richard Stephens of Keele University in the United Kingdom and colleagues for demonstrating that swearing alleviates pain.

Public health: Microbiologist Manuel Barbeito of the Industrial Health and Safety Office at Fort Detrick, Maryland, and colleagues for determining that microbes flourish in the beards of scientists.

Economics: The executives of Goldman Sachs, AIG, Lehman Brothers, Bear Stearns, Merrill Lynch, and Magnetar "for creating and promoting new ways to invest money--ways that maximize financial gain and minimize financial risk for the world economy, or for a portion thereof."

Chemistry: Engineer Eric Adams of the Massachusetts Institute of Technology in Cambridge and colleagues for disproving the belief that oil and water don't mix.

Management: Social scientist Alessandro Pluchino of the University of Catania in Italy and colleagues for mathematically demonstrating that organizations can increase efficiency by giving people promotions at random.

Biology: Biologist Libiao Zhang of the University of Bristol in the United Kingdom and colleagues for their study of fellatio in fruit bats.