The decision to write the GRE, though it took years and months of contemplation, was actually taken in a couple of hours of self-introspection on a fine sunday evening. A widely publicised sunday evening at that! I know how many calls and msgs i got that evening sharp at 7!! So thoughtful of you all nice souls, happy to have you all in my life.
And I would be wrong if I dont mention about the people who made me do that - take that step forward. A Big Thanks!! A million of them!! I dont really need to name them, they know it. Well, as it turned out, people who told me not to go this way, actually helped me more in making this decision, than those who told me to go for it! So keep contradicting, disproving, stupefying and arguing with me, that's makes us both prosper! A special thanks for those!
So at this juncture, I am at my wit's end about how my fate would turn out.Crossing fingers about what would happen. As time progressed, I have somehow gotten this feeling that GRE is more of luck, chance and kismet (ofcourse ur preparation )than anything else. But this can't be an excuse for not preparing. As usual, my preparation has been in the last couple of weeks, it has been the same always and i guess I have lost the power and the hope to change this last minute thing atleast in the future. For the past two weeks, I have been seeing people with words written on their foreheads. This is a result of me attributing a word to each and every single person's character i know. I know this sounds hilarious and looks like I am on the verge of something wrong, but this helps. And hopefully, it will all be over by the 23rd!!
The thought of the moment when the score would flash on screen is probably the scariest. People have told me how they want to finish off the last couple of questions faster, and how they get impatient in the last few moments, just to see the scores a second earlier. There have been debacles - about how widely touted as 'sureshot 1400+' got shockingly less scores and also how the not-so-talked about came up with great scores! Well, I have always felt in any race being a well-prepared underdog is the best way to be, and by well prepared, I mean the preparation of victory speech inclusive.
So, wish me, that God, and what people call luck stay with me through the rest of my preparation and more importantly - from 23rd morning 9 to 1.
Right now, all I have to say is just one thing - Pray for me, Brother!! Pray for me, Sister!!
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Only when i read through again, I found that these days my blog has become a thanksgiving centre of sorts. True! Some things are better left unsaid, but Thanks is never left unsaid... This is probably a reiteration of the fact that how incomplete and clumsy you can get if people don't stand by you, and how this can be avoided just by the presence of a few good souls around you.
No amount of thanksgiving seems to justify the score enough! To god and to all the good souls! The feeling that my role in 1530, and a 99 percentile or a 5 points in essay is extremely negligible has come to haunt me these days - yes, its really really unsettling. I can't get over the burden of that feeling. Probably some thanksgiving can relieve the tension. What else do I do? No, I am definitely not exaggerating or whatever its called. Absolutely not. But I just needed to pour it out, no better place than this ! Nothing more comfortable than this bond between the keyboard, the monitor and the mind. THANKS!!!
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