My Chiggy Wiggy with GRE!!! - Part 1

Yaaaaaaaaay!!! This post is being written from Cloud Ten... 1530 it was meant to be.. Thank you all, each and every soul who bothered to wish me on gun time, each and every soul who helped me with material for GRE, each and every soul who bore the brunt of all my badgering and blabbering before the exam, each and every soul who sat with me and helped me out with every step from passport to name change to registering GRE to preparing for it.... The endless travail of wordlist quizzing and solving quants.. Thank you all...

Hopefully, essay scores don't disappoint me as well. Coz, I have gotten out of that phase in life

- where everything/everyone had a word written on them ...

- when every signal in chennai meant a difficult word like 'sartorial' at taylor's road...

- when i think of food as -viand, victuals, collusions and comestibles and not as food...

- when i think of movie spoofs as burlesques and parody...etc etc etc

And now, life seems a lot more different! How much a person can change in 3 weeks!!! :)

I want to sing out aloud a couple of lines, that seemed so apt for my feeling for sometime now..

"Aa rahi paas ya door mein Ja rahi...
Janoo na mein hu kahan pe..."

Indeed, I don't know where I am going, Near or Far of where I want to be.. Sometimes, the truth is i dont even know what I want... Neither do I know where I am... Entangled eh??

I do understand that this is just the beginning of a long odyssey that's going to be weary.. I say this because I had told everyone that I am not going into MS or PhD way if this fails... I had my ISB website links ready just incase GRE became a debacle.. looks like its not meant to be that way..

And to myself and to all those out there who think i can't and won't do anything else except an MS/PhD... The final call hasn't been made still, I could as well turn out to be a MBA degree holder with a good GRE score, rather I wish so, somewhere in a corner of my heart... And the answer to all this, hopefully would be with me by April/May 2010.. Until then, crossing of fingers continues :)

Nevertheless, hopefully, I would sit and blog one fine afternoon with the same elation about me getting my MS or a PhD degree from a gud univ too!!! If that's what it is meant to be :) God willing :)

Nearing the D-Day...

And it's round the corner... GRE!!! Five more days to go!! Just five!! I really want to document and freeze this feeling in time. I want to revisit this page - when I know my score. Either, to be happy about and cherish my preparation times. Or, God forbid, Be more responsible and learn my lessons right from the debacle - not to sit and blog less than a week before the GRE!!

The decision to write the GRE, though it took years and months of contemplation, was actually taken in a couple of hours of self-introspection on a fine sunday evening. A widely publicised sunday evening at that! I know how many calls and msgs i got that evening sharp at 7!! So thoughtful of you all nice souls, happy to have you all in my life.

And I would be wrong if I dont mention about the people who made me do that - take that step forward. A Big Thanks!! A million of them!! I dont really need to name them, they know it. Well, as it turned out, people who told me not to go this way, actually helped me more in making this decision, than those who told me to go for it! So keep contradicting, disproving, stupefying and arguing with me, that's makes us both prosper! A special thanks for those!

So at this juncture, I am at my wit's end about how my fate would turn out.Crossing fingers about what would happen. As time progressed, I have somehow gotten this feeling that GRE is more of luck, chance and kismet (ofcourse ur preparation )than anything else. But this can't be an excuse for not preparing. As usual, my preparation has been in the last couple of weeks, it has been the same always and i guess I have lost the power and the hope to change this last minute thing atleast in the future. For the past two weeks, I have been seeing people with words written on their foreheads. This is a result of me attributing a word to each and every single person's character i know. I know this sounds hilarious and looks like I am on the verge of something wrong, but this helps. And hopefully, it will all be over by the 23rd!!

The thought of the moment when the score would flash on screen is probably the scariest. People have told me how they want to finish off the last couple of questions faster, and how they get impatient in the last few moments, just to see the scores a second earlier. There have been debacles - about how widely touted as 'sureshot 1400+' got shockingly less scores and also how the not-so-talked about came up with great scores! Well, I have always felt in any race being a well-prepared underdog is the best way to be, and by well prepared, I mean the preparation of victory speech inclusive.

So, wish me, that God, and what people call luck stay with me through the rest of my preparation and more importantly - from 23rd morning 9 to 1.

Right now, all I have to say is just one thing - Pray for me, Brother!! Pray for me, Sister!!